Nothing Changes In My Life Until I Change

I am changing my life for the better, in full alignment with my dreams and aspirations and highest expectations for myself and well being.The changing process is the “becoming” process.

In every moment I have to be aware of every choice I make.How else would I be able to change? If I don't stay self aware of every action and reaction and timing and thoughts and motives and intentions, how could I change all of those for the better? No wonder I feel tired. It's way easier to grab your phone or scroll or react or avoid… Wait, is it easier? Yea, It is. That's why it's called doing the work I guess. Its constant work and checking in and paying attention and managing emotions, which is not as easy as scrolling.. Changing my life has been exhausting… and emotional. 

My first signs of spiritual and self awareness were at age 19. I remember being so excited to know better but used to be mad at God about it too. I remember crying to The Universe “Why me?!?! Why do I have to know better and do better and be better?!?!?” lolAbsolutely hilarious, angsty teen me…

And even though I “knew better” for many years, and even though I grew a deep spiritual awareness and connection and under the surface understanding, my life has been the same for the most part. Yea I've been better and had a bigger heart in certain situations, but the work im doing now is different.Maybe that's what it is, I wasn't actually doing the work. I was gaining knowledge and understanding and learning but I wasn't taking action and aligning my life in the biggest way, like I understand what is expected now.

Now I know THESE LITTLE THINGS EVERY SINGLE DAY are CRITICAL for MASSIVE change.You MUST!Because those little things that fuel your mind/body/spirit in the best way are the ingredients you need for everything else around you to change because..

When I change, my life changes!!!